Pain...recovery...healing...

   Positivity.  Something comes easy when life is going well. But what about when life isn't going well?  How hard is it to stay positive when life is throwing junk at you? Somebody always has it worse than you do, right? That should give you perspective and a positive attitude toward your situation.  If only it was that easy. There is a lot of things I'm going through, and let me tell you it's not easy being positive.  Most of you who know me, know that I have Celiacs Disease.  I was diagnosed with that early in 2015. That was a rough road to get diagnosed (two years of random symptoms and 3 different doctors to get diagnosed).  I was sad and excited when I found that out, I was finally going to start feeling better! I had horrible stomach pains, fatigue and headaches. What you don't realize though, is that when you eat something for years and years, your body needs to detox off it.  It makes sense when it's drugs or alcohol, but gluten? Who knew you had to detox off of gluten?  Guess what? It's not fun, I got headaches, nausea, night sweats, and fatigue. The same symptoms that eating gluten was causing were the same symptoms that coming off of it.  I read that it could take up to a year for your body to start actually healing after Celiac diagnosis.  It makes sense, my whole intestines were swollen, so much so that I couldn't eat hardly any food for like 8 to 9 months.  I still had my headaches, but they said that could up to two years before that gets fully better.  I had quite a bit of deficiencies due to my body not absorbing a whole lot. After starting supplements for a while I was feeling better, my headaches had dwindled down to 1 every two weeks or so, woohoo I was healed!  
   Then I got pregnant, boy was that a whole new level of not feeling well, but that's a post for another day.  While I was pregnant I had terrible tension headaches, so I decided to see a chiropractor.  A family friend of ours recommended Solutions Chiropractic, I saw Dr. Wendy Iszler who helped me greatly. She is a wonderful chiropractor!  She headhunted me and offered me a job for when I return from maternity leave, I was hooked!  After I had my little one, I was still having headahces. Go figure right. I thought it was just from my hormones still, and my neck popping out, so Dr. Wendy gladly adjusted me every week as I needed it.  Over Christmas time I started getting sick again...Every morning I had severe stomach pains, a nightmare that I hoped would never happen.  What on earth was wrong now? Why the heck am I getting sick again? I was super frustrated.  So I talked with Dr. Wendy and she sent me over to our nutritionist Danielle.  She is amazing, she has such an amazing options to get to the real reason why you get sick.  So I had a meeting with her and she started a protocol for me to help get better.  There are so many things that I had going on in my gut that cause symptoms, that my doctor didn't even offer to test. So I thought here we go I'll start these supplements and on my way to healing. The downside to this was that I was breastfeeding and two items I needed to take can affect the flavor of the breast milk, of course my little girl didn't like it. So I thought I would finish breastfeeding until I couldn't and then start the protocol.  But I was on my to recovery!
   But wait, we still have the headaches. Of course once one thing subsides on my body something else flairs up!  I continued to get adjusted about every week, including KT taping to help support my neck and help keep it in place.  I was talking with my boss one day about pain killers, and I told her that I took Tylenol and ibuprofen almost everyday, she did not like that news.  "You need to stop and we need to figure what the heck is going on!" So after some more pain and coaxing I finally had had enough and she sent me for x-rays.  I received the x-rays and shot them over to Dr. Wendy, she instantly knew what was causing my headaches!  I have no curve in my neck, who knew..all my life I had loved laying on flat pillows, and now I know why. My neck is flat.  She described it as when you snap a towel and all that power goes at the end of the snap into the whip, that's what my neck is doing. Every time I walk or run, it's a constant jar to my head. So just some physical therapy would fix it and off the referral went.  This all sounds very exciting, a lifetime of headaches solved, a gut on it's way back to health, I am on my way to being normal! I was very excited.  Here is what I failed to consider, I had been sick for 3-4 years before I started trying to get better and I had headaches my whole life, so this isn't an instant fix.  It's a long road of  recovery and healing.  But it's hard to stay positive during this time! I've been in PT for 2 months, and I have been doing tests and supplements and I still am getting headaches and I'm still getting sick.  I try not to take pain meds if I can avoid it, but at the same time I have a little baby, I don't wanna spend half my time being sick and not being able to spend time with her, she's only little once! Who wants to spend their kid's life wasting away sick? Nobody, that's who.  I've gone from being sick all the time, to a slow progress of feeling better, I've gone to ibuprofen everyday from horrible headaches, to light headaches everyday but manageable without the need for as much ibuprofen.  So why is it hard to stay positive? When I have good days I get super excited and it's wonderful but then I have my bad days and I wonder why am I not getting better? Those stupid seeds of doubts of what if I never get better?  The negative road is always the easiest, especially when life beats you up for a long time.  You can't get better over night, so why do we expect years and years of pain to just be better in a week, or after a few doctor visits and then get upset when that doesn't happen.  There is always a cause and always a reason, and many times one reason is linked to the other.  Don't give up, don't let a doctor tell you there's nothing you can do, fight for your health.  I'm not gonna get better over night, but I'm on the road to recovery, and it's going to be a hard and long road. With everything so instant in our society we want to apply it to everything in our lives but it's just not possible.  So I'm taking my journey one step at a time, day by day trying to manage life while trying to get better, positivity is key but it's one of the hardest things to do when you're having a rough day. I hope that this can give you some encouragement just to stay positive in your healing process!  Feel free to comment a little of your story of healing emotional or physical, or ways that you kept positive during this time. 

Father's Day

Father's Day!

Today is Father's Day, a day we nationally recognize dads and even single moms who are taking the role of a dad.  Today in our society, we give dad's an unexpected role.  When a women have kids, they expect the mom to sacrifice her life, make muffins for the school bake sales, get up with the kids in the middle of the night, make dinner, and even work a full time job.  But what do we expect of father's?  When a father wakes up with the baby in the middle of the night or makes dinner on his own volition or even makes food for the bake sale, we praise him.  We tend to act shocked that he is participating in helping out with the family.  When in all reality, everyone should be helping out no matter their roles.  We should praise mom for her sacrifice staying up late preparing for the next day, and we should praise dad for getting up with the baby because of his willingness help out.  When you're part of a family everyone should help out, mom, dad and children. 

   My husband has exceeded that role. He is so helpful around the house. It doesn't matter if I ask him to do things or if he just does it himself.  He takes great care of Abigail and of me. Nothing is ever fair in life, especially when it come to parenting. Kevin sure does make sure that he tries his hardest at everything he does and has a great attitude while at it...(most of the time..hehe). So happy Father's Day to my Hubby, you're an amazing man!


Life...

Hey y'all,
Life's pretty crazy right now! So we'll see how well I can blog with an 8 month old. I always try but always end up stopping, last blog I was doing super well on and then SURPRISE! I'm pregnant! Boy was that a rugged journey....I was so sick the first trimester, and once I got over that hump I hated everything.  So here I am now, trying to get back into life. 

Let me tell ya, your perspective really changes when you have a baby.  All you wanna do is give it the best and healthiest life.  I used to think my mom was crazy for doing that. She would try to buy organic and tell us to stay away from dyes and high fructose corn syrup. All we did is make fun of her and now here I am wanting to buy only organic for my baby, making sure her food isn't full of garbage, anyway I can.  When your goal is to teach your little one good eating habits, it really makes you look at your own diet.  Let me tell you there sure is a lot of junk you don't realize you're eating... Chips are my guilty pleasure and you can imagine how healthy they are.
Kevin and I decided to look at our diet and try to transition into a healthy life style all around. 
Anyway that's some of the things that I wanna "try" to blog about. On top of being a working mom and just living life.